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DEPRESSION ;A; WHAT TO DO
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Um, hi everyone.
I don't think you guys even remember me anymore. ;A;
-sobs-

Well, I'm kind of back now. I say "kind of" because I feel as if I can't post anything here. :'(

Before I get to that, I'll dump some stuff here. Nobody's gonna read it anyways though. *sobs*

Why I went on hiatus:
• My great-grandpa died.
• I got sudden art block. (It still continues today -sighs-)
• I got a Daily Deviation. I'm not saying this is a bad thing -- it really just made me feel so pressurized and stressed. After I received the DD, there was a bunch of people who posted comments and sent me notes saying that my art didn't deserve to have a Daily Deviation. After the initial excitement of the DD, I realized that there was a truth in those messages -- my art didn't deserve it.
• I got extremely stressed out from being the admin of fallensouls-rp. My art was like crap compared to everyone else's. I felt like I didn't deserve to be boss (which is why I'm closing the group / stepping down - I'll get to that later).
• After neglecting all my groups, I didn't know how to tell you guys. People were so excited about FS, I didn't want to break it to them that I'm closing it.
• I lost inspiration.
• I think I had what you would call "depression". I lost interest in everything -- anime, manga, school, friends. My marks went on a sudden drop during that period. I stopped volunteering at my elementary. I became so pissed at everyone. I'm sorry.
• I didn't even touch my tablet since the last time I logged in.

Why I'm back:
• I have no idea.
• I found inspiration - music. Mainly K-POP. I'm learning to compose now, and I've also arranged some instrumental versions / orchestra versions of some popular songs.
• The art I'm gonna post now are probably gonna be related to K-POP.
• YOU CAN CHANGE URLS ON dA NOW? o u o
• I-I miss you guise. ; u ;

What has happened in my life:
• I've learned HTML and Flash at school.
• I've designed a website.
• Started Japanese at school. Now I can understand and read the basics of Japanese.
• Studying Korean on my own. So far, I can read the letters and know a few simple words and phrases.
• I've become addicted to BIGBANG. G-Dragon is the hottest guy I've ever laid eyes on. 8D
• I now own two albums, two DVDs, and a yearbook of BIGBANG. And I'm ordering the Extraordinary 20's photobook + poster.
• I'm getting 100% in art at the moment.
• I'm on the honour roll~~
• I learned to play the violin, and learning guitar.
• I'm taking music history, and the exam's in August. :3
• I got a new tumblr: gdragon-oppa

Why I just typed all that:
• I needed to feel better about myself. I'm sorry.

If you actually read through that, thank you so much. You don't know how much it means to me.

Thank you.





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Long Hiatus

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Hey guys.
Something has happened in real life.
One of my family members have passed away.
In addition, I'm not sure... but I'm really unmotivated, in art and socially.
This is a personal issue, but I'm afraid I won't be able to be on deviantart for a long time.

Hopefully, I will be able to return.
In the next few days, I will be taking care of my groups and stuff.

Not sure when I'll be back.
Hopefully soon, but we'll have to see.

I think I'll still be on msn, so guys if you want to add me, feel free.
akarashii@live.com

I might not be on a lot though.
ごめん。

Thanks for everything.



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When I logged on to dA, and saw all these messages, I was like *A*;
Then I saw `congrats for the DD` from some totally awesome people!

I got my first Daily Deviation for my tutorial:
SAI Tutorial - The Basics by miru-kai

Thank you so much, guys! ; A ;
I don't know what to say...
THANK YOU! ;A;

Especially a huge thanks to jadecillustrations for suggesting and shelldevil for featuring it!
I'm so honoured, I never thought that I would.

You guys are my inspiration, thank you so much! ;u;



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There's more on my tumblr, but I don't know how to link it OTL;

Dear watchers,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

May all your wishes come true!
I wish you a happy new year.
May 2012 be full of surprises and experiences, and I know that we will all have a great time!

Thanks for all the fun experiences in 2011!
Thanks for always being there for me, all you lovely people!
Thanks to all my friends, who have been so encouraging and awesome!
I wish I could write out a list, but that would reach the stars. ; u ;
Thank you for everything!

Onwards toward 2012!
`rashii`

"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them."
-- Walt Disney
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2012 New Years Resolutions

1. Draw more. I really need to improve!
2. Better grades. =u=
3. Eat healthy, and get fit. Boy this is gonna be hard for a choco holic like me.
4. Become a better deviant! :D
5. I wish to make a flash visual novel ~~



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These are some works that I find to be very amazing in each their own way. Each feature includes a name of a "suit", as in playing cards. Each suit represents something, or an element, and I find a work worth featuring associated with each suit. It could be the element, the theme, or that it reminds me of that suit. Anything goes. These features happen once in a while, mainly when I feel like it.

Volume 2 - December 16, 2011


♦♦♦ Diamonds Feature ♦♦♦
Element: Earth | Represents: Physical, Material things
mystery by heise
by heise
Love this! It really is very mysterious! It lets off an aura of intimidation, strength, and determination. Overall, this is a beautifully painted image!


♣♣♣ Clubs Feature ♣♣♣
Element: Fire | Represents: War, Martial Arts, Strength
KanHachi by tsubakiya
by tsubakiya
Wonderfully drawn! The expressions are awesomely depicted and funny. I love the emphasis in this, and the motion in a still picture.


♥♥♥ Hearts Feature ♥♥♥
Element: Water | Represents: Emotion, Love, Romance
KOKORO - KISEKI by redjuice999
by redjuice999
Oh my goodness, I don't even know where to begin about this piece. It's so beautiful! It lets off so much emotion. With so many details and a wonderful colouring skills, this is an artwork that is impossible to miss.


♠♠♠ Spades Feature ♠♠♠
Element: Air | Represents: Leaves, Grass, Nature, Luck, Challenge
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by zaphylla
All of these characters are beautifully painted, each with their own expressions. This piece of artwork contains so many details and a wonderful nature setting. It gives of a light mood, and a feeling of beauty and purity.


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Volume 1 - December 07, 2011


♦♦♦ Diamonds Feature ♦♦♦
Element: Earth | Represents: Physical, Material things
Floating Market-2 by nguyenshishi
by nguyenshishi
I loved this piece! When I saw it, I couldn't help but feature it. The details are beautiful, and the characters and their expressions are adorable! The background is simple, yet detailed at the same time. The overall composition and technique put into this art piece make it simply astounding.


♣♣♣ Clubs Feature ♣♣♣
Element: Fire | Represents: War, Martial Arts, Strength
EX rumia by THE-LM7
by THE-LM7
Amazing! The feeling and the theme of this picture are very clearly shown. Really loved this work, and deserves more recognition. Check out the rest of this deviant's gallery - you will be amazed.


♥♥♥ Hearts Feature ♥♥♥
Element: Water | Represents: Emotion, Love, Romance
take a rest by edenfox
by edenfox
This work is simply amazing! It needs a lot more attention. The details and the colours chosen emphasize the character, yet it doesn't take away from the background. This artwork conveys an emotion that is difficult to portray through still works.


♠♠♠ Spades Feature ♠♠♠
Element: Air | Represents: Leaves, Grass, Nature, Luck, Challenge
menma by milysnow
by milysnow
The expression of Menma is adorable! The overall effects of this drawing are beautiful. This is a piece that is light on the eyes and beautiful to the heart.




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I'm Back... Sort of. by miru-kai, journal

Long Hiatus by miru-kai, journal

HOLY CRAP A DD *u* by miru-kai, journal

2012: Happy New Year | Resolutions by miru-kai, journal

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